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21 year old on the path to finding myself. Hip Hop Dancer (VP of Culture Shock Dance Troupe in New Paltz) and Public Relations student at SUNY New Paltz. I may lack wealth, but I have a wealthy heart.

Monday, May 9, 2011

Say You Will (Freestyle)

I used to dedicate this song to you...
Now I can't even get along with you
Warm summer days turned to cold winter nights
Long, strong embraces turned into a never ending fight
What would it take to get your lovin' back to me again?
Man, fuck an enemy, I'd rather be a better man
I never pictured that I would be rippin' pictures
Never thought that I'd be tellin' all my friends that I-I miss you
I miss the days when we used to talk all on the phone
Now I spend all of my Saturday nights all alone
You pulled a Nina Sky, just a Faded Memory
Got my hands together prayin' that you could come back to me
I guess you're too damn busy chasin' pavements
You could be chasin' my heart, I guess you paid it
Sick and tired of the false hope and the lies
Keep your player card, pimpin', this is my final goodbye

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Untitled

Wayne said it best,
"You close your mouth and let your ass talk"
Claiming to be the realest, the illest
But the same principles you despise
Are the same principles you live by
Saying you speak the truth
But why are they full of lies?
I give my honesty to you, my trust, my loyalty
Seems kind of hard for you to reciprocate the deed
So what's the need of our friendship?
Secrets don't keep friends, but friends keep secrets
Collecting skeletons in your closet
With each tale you make your deposit
You can take that bullshit somewhere where it's appreciated
Because I don't have time for rose colored glasses
I don't have time to swim through filters
Sifting through the papers that your stories are written on
What comes to dark will eventually come to light
And I won't be around to see it

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Fuck It

Sometimes all you can do is cry

A tear drop for every trial and bloodshed for every tribulation

A tear drop for debt

A tear drop for doubt

It’s crazy that it takes more to frown than to turn a frown upside down

But that’s all that life seems to give you

Living in a world where you try so hard just to fail

Working and not seeing the profit

Sometimes you just feel like fuck it

Why am I paying thousands of dollars just to gain experience?

What’s the point of having it all if you don’t have the money to get it all?

We live in such a fantasy

Who knows what’s real anymore?

Fuck it, fuck it all

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Tears Are Not Enough (Rewrite)


I feel insanity take over me
Begin to lose my way
I have the sudden urge to try and leave
But then I fail and stay

How can I escape the chain on my heart?
Felt it burn like acid rain from the start
Don't want to go completely insane....

I cry day and night
But tears are not enough to say the words
And I try to hide
But I'm lost and confused to say the worst

It's getting crazy, 'cause I'm missing you
Oh baby when did my heart get so far?
Running in circles, tryin' to find something that works
But I can't see where you are

Felt the door begin to close on my heart
Felt it burn like kerosene from the start
Somebody help me find my way...

I cry day and night
But tears are not enough to say the words
And I try to hide
But I'm lost and confused to say the worst

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Christmas


It's beginning to look a lot like...
Another day, another night
This Christmas shit is too much
Waiting for one day to give and get
When people can give and get every other day
Whatever happened to the values?
Spending time with family and friends?
Cherishing those you love
But instead, we cherish those toys and shiny gifts
Breaking our arms with bags and legs with long lines
I can deal without a Christmas
Especially when it's been taken away from me a long time ago
The good times, the happiness
All I see is stress and capital
Spreading wallets thin instead of spreading Christmas cheer
Until I get the real meaning of the 25th of December
Christmas is just another day on the calendar
It's beginning to look a lot like...
Another day, another night

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Feelings

It's been a good time for the long run
For me at least...that's how I feel
I wish I could delve deep into your mind
Tell exactly how you feel on the inside for me, about me
What you think about when I'm not there, when I'm around
Why you're still here with me for so long
But how do you feel?
I know how I feel...
I feel we've weathered the worst storms
Climbed unimaginable heights
Went to the ends of the earth for each other
And although I love you, I still feel there's a space to fill
I haven't been the same since the day we've been apart
Guess it's because I'm so used to being so close
But I guess times have to change for better, for worse, for indifferent
We may not speak the way we used to in the beginning
But I still love you through it all
You may think that I have changed in some fashion
But I'm still the same boy you've met two years ago
The same one you said "I think I'm falling in love with you" to
None of us can tell the future
We can only go based on the present
Where will the roads take us?
No one will ever know
I just wish I knew how you feel
All I know is how to love you
All I know is that I'm in love with you
But how do you feel?

Married to the Next Jay Z


I know I get it in
And daddy sure goes hard
But I don't have to be married to the next Jay Z
Fame and fortune can never compared to love
All of those things can disappear
What money and cars can't fulfill
The heart definitely can
I can be the hottest in the game wearing his chain
But I don't have to be married to the next Jay Z
All I ask for is the support and respect
You can definitely get that in return
I support your dreams, your goals, your aspirations
I respect your drive, your passion, your motivation
He can make Roc Nation pledge their allegiance
Make me feel forever young
But I don't have to be married to the next Jay Z
As long as he makes me feel like his First Song
The rest can be history in the making

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Can I Be Real?

Can I be real with y'all?
When you see me smile
The smile that you see is a frown
Can I be truthful now?
All the energy left in me
Is slowly dwindling down
Can I be honest?
What may seem so easy to you
Is no less than harder for me
Can I speak these words?
Every time I laugh loud
Is to cover these tears you don't see
I'm tired, lethargic, more vulnerable than ever
Am I being understood? Seen in this inclement weather?
Can I be real? Can I be truthful?
Can I be here, just break down and cry?
Can I be honest? Can I be open?
Can I just tell you how much my soul dies?
What's on my mind, what's in my life
All of these problems it seems I must face
Why can't it go, just let me know
I'm sick of this shit that we call the human race
Can I be real? Can I just feel...

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Trying to Find Trouble


Trying to Find Trouble

Call me crazy, call me paranoid
But blame my broken past
I've searched you inside and out
Trying to find trouble
I look for you to do me harm
Wait for a slip up
Your chance for a strike
I try to weed out a flaw
Pick out a problem
Scope out an issue or two
I hope for some kind of imperfection
Seek some kind of problem
And to my conclusion...
You have nothing...
No...there's nothing there for a complex inquisition
No evidence for an interrogation
No reason for quarrel
You, my love, can do no wrong
Instead of finding trouble, I found a saint
Instead of worry, I find peace
Rather than hate, I find even more love
You erase all of my troubles
Trump my past affairs
Eliminate my heartbreak
Trying to find trouble led me to finding a new found love in you
So my search can stop here
I found where I belong
No need to fathom running away

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Awhile


It's been quite awhile since we've met
Awhile since we've shared times that I almost forget
Awhile since you and I have been friends
Awhile since the friendship almost came to an end
But it's life that's brought the frienship back in full circle
It's been quite some time since we've been away
And it's funny how much time we've spent apart
Our friendship is still here to stay
That's the true meaning of friendship
When you weather storms and winds blow
But you somehow cross paths even then
Life is cyclical, inexplicable
All that's known is that after awhile you can still hold onto friends
Even if you haven't heard from them in awhile
It never means the end

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Let's Be Honest


Let's be honest
I'm a hard pill to swallow
I tend to be a bitch
What can I say? I'm just difficult
Let's be honest
I may not be the most patient
I can come off to be quite arrogant
And I can consider myself quite intense
Let's be honest
You can say that I get under your skin
I like to speak before I think
Instead of stepping back and listening to reason
Let's be honest
I'm different in the realm of fashion
Not exactly the view of man that society sets
You can call me Mr. Know It All...so I think
Let's be honest
Why are you here?
Oh...it's love...
That's the glue to the sandpapers
That's what makes my poisons taste like honey
That's what melts the knives
That's what turns my rants into calm whispers in your ears
Love...
Honestly...thank you for loving me
You acknowledge these flaws and stick by me
And I ease these flaws slowly
Dripping them away in doses as you fill my IV with love
Let's be honest
The reason why I can stand here
My reason for bettering myself
Is simply because of your love
Honestly I'm a handful
But you lessen the weights
I'm hard to tame, difficult to manage
But you take the time to break my barriers
Cut through my guards
In all honesty
I owe my progression to you

Monday, May 4, 2009

The Crows Outside


Hearing the crows outside this morning
Makes me realize how I die inside every other day
It seems as if the work just never ends
Tend to always please others
Rarely do I please myself
There's only a select few who fuel me
But the majority of the world feels against me
Caught in limbo with how I feel about life
Can this be a sweet dream?
Most days feel like bitter nightmares
Slowly do I fade away
Whispering for some kind of retreat from this...
Can't even think straight
Up at night to slumber in morning
My days turn into nights, my nights into days
Life goes backwards so fastly but moves forward so slowly
Wish I could take control of time
Make the stress go faster
My work load disappear like sand in the wind
Make my happier moments go at a snail's pace
Kisses, touches, laughter and joy
But the crows outside remind me
There's no relief even during the morning light